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I have not posted a thinggy in a while...
Not much as gone on anyway..shows,school its all below.
I'm kind of in those moods where I know that...
boys are not everything
education is important
i need a job to get by
my parents can be psychos but they love me and I love them
I almost put a book in the microwave because I was fixated on a show. (Sue Thomas F B eye. and some Law and Order stuff)
one of those boy things that you usually get...I kinda am sorta interested in this guy at school...suprise surprise? not really. Anyway...he's been having some problems with things and I realized that he is probably shallow which sucks for me yes? YES
Not much I can do about it...but just be a good friend which is what I am doing..I don't think he's really aked me to go anywhere..although he's called me twice to see if I wanted to hang out with him in the mall but i was on my way back to Orleans and what not..so I was like...SHIT SHIT SHIT...I should of just stayed and waited and hung out and ...stared? haha..yeah that's me...miss creepyton.
Anyway I don't think he'll really notice unless he decides to read my notes..and actually comment then it will be quite akward..I kinda just act like one of those friends with a creepy mind and tell him stuff...I know its not the coolest thing but he's kind of gone on about how he...likes some chicks in his classes (obviously I know its not me) yadda yadda..story of my life..blah blah blah...continue note/blog journal
I have not done much but school and small hangouts
halloween wasn't too amusing but it was cool nonetheless.
I've constantly been in the mood to
dance around and just listen to music..and pretty much just be lazy as if I have nothing better to do with my life which is not enjoyable but I continue to do that anyway.......
life is kinda...
alright!
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| Burn my skin off |
[08 Oct 2006|04:03pm] |
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You have to love parents...really..they make your life great if they are conservative. People think there is no difference between the two.
Little do they know......
Anyway Monday October 2nd I turned 18. Woot indeed.
I saw great people - Anthony, The Girlz, Tierney, Mitch, Julie, Mel and Emma, HS, and Natalie
I am very excited that I got to see them. Julie gave me liquor(shots) for my birthday. I had maybe one bottle and a half haha YEEEEEEE. Then I went ahead and had more stuff at Lebop. Emma and Mel gave me a candy combo and I love them both for it they are soo cute together chee glee ^^ that's my chee glee face btw.
Anyway enough about the birthday...
So apparently my dad is taking me to court because I would rather sleep at Michelle's house (One of the Girlz) then walk back home on Valin (15-20 minute walk) late at night. Now I don't really get why he would take me to court for something like that...but the fact is he will probably lose the case if I bring up everything he has ever done in his life.
whatever anyway I am for sure going to move out...I think its better than me lazing around in my house and crying myself to sleep every second night. Really im tired of it..its too much work to be stressed and I enjoy being relaxed and not having to put a face on every single minute.
Things to do:
pack all my stuff and decide what i am keeping
find a job
find a place to live
go to class and finish all my assignments
check out my student loan
apply for an internship
change my degree or whatever its called.
This is my life in a nutshell really!
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| Updating takes alot out of a woman! |
[01 Sep 2006|09:47pm] |
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There has not been much to report..really there hasn't.
My week has been eventful though...
I got kicked out for the following reasons:
- didnt want a 5pm,6pm curfew.
- apparently having white friends is the wrong thing to do
- art history wasnt a great educative choice
- i want to work part time in order to have money
there was alot of other things.
anyway im looking for a place so its all good.
also...also I THINK that im turning 18 in a month from tomorrow
actually I KNOW that im turning 18 in a month from tomorrow which means
presents start brainstorming on what you want to get me.
yep anyway
there is usually more to add to this journal/blog thing but im too lazy to do that.
but yeah frosh on sunday im quite excited.
i think crunkness is in order
right?
yeah....
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| Ace is my new boyfriend |
[23 Aug 2006|11:44pm] |
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So I just got a new laptop that I am currently on...but I am also using the wireless access from one of my neighbors. Who? I have no clue actually...anyway the cool thing about this is that I can be online at anytime in the day. I am tellement excite as they say in the french country. Anywa thats pretty much all I had to say.
mewoos
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| Sacred Weeks |
[21 Aug 2006|11:27pm] |
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It's actually quite hard for me to recollect everything that has happened in the past...2 weeks I guess...
I have not been to sure about what I want to do in the future. I always figured that I would try and be some kind of actress.
Then I wanted photojournalism which I still do. But I am doing art history right now. And I do plan on switching into communications to get into journalism...public relations and other things. I'll give you a list of what you can do with communications.
there is:
( I have put beside an X the ones that interest me)
I am quite fond of these things anyway ill write more later.
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| Make sure you go! |
[17 Aug 2006|11:52am] |
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GOING BACK TO SCHOOL WITH MUSIC IN YOUR VEINS
THE WISHLIST (Ottawa Hardcore)
TOMORROW STARTS TODAY (GATINEAU HARDCORE)
LIFE LONG TRAGEDY ( CALI HARDCORE)
DIE YOUNG ( TEXAS HARDCORE)
ROLL THE DICE (GATINEAU HARDCORE)
6:30PM
AT CAFE DEKCUF
$8/$10
TICKETS AVAILABLE AT ENDHITS TOMORROW
ONLY 5 TICKETS WILL BE THERE!
AA/19+
A BONESAW PRODUCTION !!!
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| Oh yes |
[09 Aug 2006|09:33pm] |
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[09 Aug 2006|06:46pm] |
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So I won't lie...
John is actually fucking hot.
Yeah...realized this a while ago...
Also im turning 18 in less than 2 months.
1 month and 23 days.
I'm going to the Dead King show on Friday..because the music is fucking sick..
Like too sick.
Then Monday I'm doing Drawnbacks merch!
Saves me..alot of money. Until next week Friday when I will need to start saving some cash up..for the Show on September 6th you know? But i will just start flyering all over the place next week and then at the University etc and so on.
Anyway get steady get bent.
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| Okay...okay....okay |
[06 Aug 2006|09:50pm] |
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I don't want to gloat but..I'm having a great day...
for one...I have an interview tomorrow at Olympus on Rideau St.
THEN...yes THEN
Im going to get my student ID at Ottawa U because im just that cool..
TOO COOL as I call it.
Plus I turn 18 in about 2 months which is exceptionally awesome.
Still havent gotten a place because I havent saved up due to things I need.
Michelle doesnt have a job yet..So im getting second thoughts about moving out with her.
I hope I get the job at Olympus they are a kick ass place. Well atleast to me.
I finished designing my tattoo. Im quite proud of it.
I would put it up here but...doing that would mean the whole world can get to it
and that my friends is just not cool.
Anyway I think I am done for the night.
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mooo cha cha
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Okay so funny thing...you know the Alex in the previous journal entries..havent talked to him for maybe a week or two at the least.
Remember how I wrote in the locked up one. that was deleted ....that I was kind of just pushing him away because he was a bit on the more action less leave me be type thing. Yeah..well..I got the whole....i know how you feel about relationships and I dont think....etc etc
I was like..oh! OH! ...haha I feel like crap though...
rejection isnt the nicest thing specially over msn...
but whatever. not much I can do...I've learnt to accept these things quite easily.
just next time I see him I'll make it really akward for him because thats who I am.
Should I feel something? Because as far as I know...I knocked off the fling on my list for the summer to do's.
"I don't except anything"
haha im glad im a fucking robot.
because right now..i would probably tell him how I really feel.
But im good with just letting it be.
This is tierneys lil MEME thing.
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[24 Jul 2006|03:08am] |
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I decided to wake up and type up a nice journal entry while watching Dracula 2000 at the same time.
I am actually fed up with what has been happening in my life for more than 3 years. Seriously...it isn't fair.
A boyfriend who gets another chick pregnant when I am only 15-16. My father who is abusive and won't stop..slandering me or whatever you want to call it. I FUCKING HATE IT.
My mom does shit all..really she does...It's actually funny how she thinks that its okay to pretend like he does absolutely nothing and then we all have to put on a smile when he gets here. BULLSHIT!
I need to move out somehow...I plan on getting 2 other jobs I guess and if that helps then I am good. If not I will try and move in with a friend downtown and pay what I can for board. I have had enough..and its funny because...I am just going to stop acting so glum about it..and try and put it in the back of my mind. Or atleast try and get it out by crying to someone..talking to someone beating the crap out of something...or just taking a long ass nap.
sigh...well lets talk about the good things in my life.
I have a show on Wednesday..finally get to meet Billy and The Lost Boys...actually I'd rather just meet Billy..but whatever works.
Alex...I think we are sort of seeing each other? I don't know..he said something along the lines of patience...I'm cool with that but I just don't want to be used and disposed you know? He is tresssssss nice though and really sweet plus he likes poetry..I used to but i dont mind it once in a while. ALSO he's pretty smart and likes good music and play the guitar oh so nicely.
I am going to Ottawa U for Art History then definately changing into communications for advertising or even journalism, whichever works. I dislike if my parents would not leave me alone about it but whatever.
I think thats about all the nice stuff I can think of though.
There is probably more..but we shall see? Or will we not..
Or not will I see if you don't see anything?
The End.
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| This weird thing that Tierney did |
[20 Jul 2006|05:02pm] |
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Well, let's see...
Tierney did this weird thing so I copied and did it too!!!
Also last night was cool...stayed at home talked to Alex. Pretty much the exact same thing I did today...except talk to Alex.
But we'll see...
- How tall are you barefoot?
5’9?5’10? who knows!!!
2. Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes I have...and I broke him nicely
3. Do you own a gun?
nope.
4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
what kind of question is this?
5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
9..but 4 for short.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
mmm so goooood
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
don’t really have one..is that a crime?
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
coffee, tea, energy drink/smoothie
9. Do you do push-ups?
yeah atleast once a night
10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
ew no
11. Do you like DisneyWorld?
have never been…but I guess I’d like it
12. Do you like the rain?
When it's warm. mm and the smell it leaves. (I agree with Tierney but I still love the rain.
13. Do you have any pets?
no pets
14. What do you smell like?
strawberries and cranberries
15. Do you have A.D.D.?
close enough. I'm an artsy (I agree with Tierney)
16. Full initials?
RDLSIEN
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
Alex, Shows, Juice
8. Name the last 3 things you have bought today.
absolutely dick all
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.
coffee, sprite/Fruitopia mix, peace juice
20. What time did you wake up today?
7:01 am is when I set my clock for, fell asleep and woke up fully at 1pm
21. Can you spell?
idiot...can I read?
22. Current worry?
Starvation around the world.
23. Current hate?
my family.
24. Favorite place to be?
with mes friends and alex
25. Least favorite place to be?
Near Coventry. And near my family
26. Where do you want to go?
Ireland, Australia, Japan
27. Do you own slippers?
I do
28. Where do you think you will be in 10 years?
Teaching, Advertising Firm, Politician
29. Do you burn or tan?
Neither…I’m black damnit
30. Yellow or blue?
blue…im not as happy as tierney
31. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate?
I wouldn’t want to be a pirate.
32. Last time your cell rang?
Long time ago…getting a new one hopefully
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Samiam songs, Gnarls Barley also
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
fire, Michael Jackson, boogie man
35. What's in your pockets right now?
no pockets
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
my sister drooling all over the place
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
I don’t know..you expect me to remember or actually care?
38. Worst injury you've ever had?
knee injury on both my knees for volleyball – nice surgery there
39. What is your GPA?
wtf? I have no clue
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
1
41. Who is your loudest friend?
I resent that ANSWER TIERNEY…I would have to say Margaret I love it when she laughs!
42. Who is your most silent friend?
Tierney
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
maybe? Don't know. Well I think I do know…but..I’m not saying :P
44. Do you wish on stars?
all the time
45. Do you have a dream?
I do..to find love..and to be happy and yeah
46. What song did you last hear?
Gnarls Barkley – GoGO gadget
47. Whats your best moment?
Volleyball games, and dancing moments
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Something happy
49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
watching television…missing someone a bit
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I hate you fucker!
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| Another Wednesday |
[19 Jul 2006|09:23pm] |
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Alright so today..worst day ever..I dont even want to talk about it...really. I dont know.
I may discuss it with Alex though...
But most of you know the problems with the family so lets just say that
anyway..........
Im going to make a list of the romantic things I like..because I got the idea from someone (who shall not be named)
and thought maybe I should put them in so I truly know what I like.
I wont number them..
but ill list them
- Cuddle on the sofa and watch a movie.
- Just sitting and talking.
- Holding hands.
- If we are getting together for an evening or even for just a few minutes, and they pick up my favorite treat or snack
- Getting random odd presents
- Surprises that are sweet..I don't know what..but they just are
- getting flowers
- taking a nap together (yum)
- star gazing
- candy is romantic..its cheesy but it says I care about your sweettooth sweetheart HAHA CHEEEEESE LAY IT ON
- Make a little loving gesture
- massages are tres romantic...and at random without me knowing.
- writing me a letter and then sending it without telling me until it gets here
- someone who is pushy and sometimes tells me to shutup haha i find it cute DONT ASK
anyway..thats my two cents..ill probably post something else today who knows?
ohhh i editted it yesum
i had 5 people talk to me about Alex..and all I could tell them was..
I don't know yet!!
haha
Katrina was awesome though...i enjoyed her advice
she is my sister
pat is my brother
thats how it works baby
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| Under The Stars |
[19 Jul 2006|01:32am] |
This is where I write something absolutely fantastic about my evening.
But I wont...it will come in later ...in the entry I guess.
I woke up..pretty normal thing to do you know? Then I headed to Michelles show which I guess was pretty cool. I was kinda just anxious for Alex to come or to see if he was coming because i thought he wasn't going to. But he did! and I saw Schmula Bing there (PAT = SB) Anyway..I'll still call him Pat for this entry.
Yeah so...the show was good. Catherine was chill..I wont really talk about the show because I was a bit angry during it but whatever.
Pat and Alex went to Aylmer, then walked around the marina and took a piss in the water and then alex climbed up a crows nest thing he said..called the white mans basketball net...HM
But they came and picked me up around 11pm which was pretty chiller!
So we went to the..industrial parkway road thing and Pat drove for a bit then I drove a bit after.
That was actually pretty fun and then we went to a gravel road and looked at the stars...there were so many...
it was so beautiful. Im glad I got to share it with those two guys though.
Pat is like family really. I can tell him everything and he'd be honest.
I wont tell you what Alex is..because im not sure yet. But he's really sweet so...thats a good thing.
But the mosquitos were fucking annoying as hell..holy gawd.
We then went to Timmies bought some timbits got extra!! w00t.
Then went to Pats house ate them and him and Alex played guitar which was sweet.
I gave Alex this german coin..since he likes languages and things
it was a corny thing to do ..really but it had starts on the ridge..and he seemed to like it then he told me
that it was really awesome..So I guess I'll start doing that.
I keep wondering though if we are going to hookup? or..
I think we need to have a discussion about it.
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| A Resume |
[17 Jul 2006|01:35pm] |
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It's been about 6 days since I have typed something new...
I'm trying to remember what has happened in the past 6 days.
I got drunk by myself and went to Blackbridge or whatever its called.
went to the bridge first...got drunk later.
Cheeky? Not really.
Then I went to Bluesfest the other two days which was crazy Metric was really really good.
Then on Saturday I had to work and then I went to...Bluesfest again to see..Anberlin,Halifax and Story of the year but I left half way through to go and see Alex.
HE PARKED SO FAR HAHA!!!
(I sorry I complained...I was trying to get on your nerves)
But surprisingly I didn't..Or did I?
Anyway we went to Skattawa Fest! Chooourah! which was hella great not alot of people but I was proud that Jeff went past curfew (10pm and killed it all up)
Alex bought me a sprite<3 twas sweet I admit.
Then we dropped Katrina off at Rideau and went to pick up Michelle at LeBOP
hardy har har...
Then we drove back to Orleans and got Pizza and Dropped Michelle off.
HIS DRIVING FREAKED THE SHIT OUT OF ME NO JOKEEEEEEE!!!
anyway
I keep diverting to other things when writing this...not a good idea really.
I got home around 3oclock that night with Alex...twas fun..thats all im going to let out really.
It was kind of oldschool to tell you the truth! I'm surprised.
SunDAY bloody SunDAY
Went to work then went to see Click with Alex which was not only comfortable..but funny..I cried a little bit..well got teary eyed.
Then went to MickDicks with Alex and sat in the car and watched tv at Broadways near my house.
The weekend/week was really really really fun. No doubt...
And he is taller than me! Joy oh joy:P
Oh bonus You me and the Enemy rocked my ottawa socks off.
Cheers
There will be an edit or something..
plus I Saw julie on friday night which was pretty chill since me and michelle were heading to endhits and were bout to see metric and we all talked about leeeeeeeeeee vertical that michelle might get. julie things they are the nicest piercing..but i dunno there are alot of pretty piercings really.
che cha
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| Martyr |
[11 Jul 2006|11:14am] |
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I'll tell you right now...last night was great.
The Latin Ska band I saw were so awesome. I hope they are not from Mexico otherwise..I'd be so sad.
It was a good night. merci Emma for buying us Wendy's you made my day.
It started out pretty shitty...
My dad called and told me I was pretty much worthless.
Then my mom keeps busting my ass about how I enjoy to sleep. I need the sleep ugh.
I dislike this really I do.
Need to get out. Still looking for a place though hopefully somewhere that will come up to $300 including utilities.
Need to find roommates. I dont think Michelle is finding work.
And I dont think she really cares about moving out anymore.
Plus it would be best to move in with people I hardly know right? Or know a little bit but dont spend alot of time with.
anyway I stole this from Mels thing
because I thought it was cool.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| × I miss somebody right now. |
× I don't watch much TV these days. |
✓ I own lots of books. |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| × I've watched porn movies. |
✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. |
✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... )
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| Festival Pass bitches! |
[09 Jul 2006|09:01am] |
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Yes its true...I won a festival pass to bluesfest off of PunkOttawa..I am just that damn excited about it for reals.
Anyway I'm still looking for a place to live.
And I definately have to make a new budget out of it. Somehow...
Also need to find a second job because as it is..I make..450$ a month. Which is enough if I get a roommate and end up paying 350 for rent and then add my utilities and shit to it.
But I would need to make atleast 600 a month if possible.
But we'll see how that works out right?
Anyway thats right bitches!
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