Caffeine Rag

The story goes on

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 06:35:47 GMT

I have not posted a thinggy in a while...

Not much as gone on anyway..shows,school its all below.
I'm kind of in those moods where I know that...
boys are not everything
education is important
i need a job to get by
my parents can be psychos but they love me and I love them
I almost put a book in the microwave because I was fixated on a show. (Sue Thomas F B eye. and some Law and Order stuff)

one of those boy things that you usually get...I kinda am sorta interested in this guy at school...suprise surprise? not really. Anyway...he's been having some problems with things and I realized that he is probably shallow which sucks for me yes? YES

Not much I can do about it...but just be a good friend which is what I am doing..I don't think he's really aked me to go anywhere..although he's called me twice to see if I wanted to hang out with him in the mall but i was on my way back to Orleans and what not..so I was like...SHIT SHIT SHIT...I should of just stayed and waited and hung out and ...stared? haha..yeah that's me...miss creepyton.

Anyway I don't think he'll really notice unless he decides to read my notes..and actually comment then it will be quite akward..I kinda just act like one of those friends with a creepy mind and tell him stuff...I know its not the coolest thing but he's kind of gone on about how he...likes some chicks in his classes (obviously I know its not me) yadda yadda..story of my life..blah blah blah...continue note/blog journal

I have not done much but school and small hangouts
halloween wasn't too amusing but it was cool nonetheless.
I've constantly been in the mood to
dance around and just listen to music..and pretty much just be lazy as if I have nothing better to do with my life which is not enjoyable but I continue to do that anyway.......

life is kinda...
alright!

Burn my skin off

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 16:44:53 GMT

You have to love parents...really..they make your life great if they are conservative. People think there is no difference between the two.

Little do they know......

Anyway Monday October 2nd I turned 18. Woot indeed.
I saw great people - Anthony, The Girlz, Tierney, Mitch, Julie, Mel and Emma, HS, and Natalie
I am very excited that I got to see them. Julie gave me liquor(shots) for my birthday. I had maybe one bottle and a half haha YEEEEEEE. Then I went ahead and had more stuff at Lebop. Emma and Mel gave me a candy combo and I love them both for it they are soo cute together chee glee ^^ that's my chee glee face btw.

Anyway enough about the birthday...
So apparently my dad is taking me to court because I would rather sleep at Michelle's house (One of the Girlz) then walk back home on Valin (15-20 minute walk) late at night. Now I don't really get why he would take me to court for something like that...but the fact is he will probably lose the case if I bring up everything he has ever done in his life.

whatever anyway I am for sure going to move out...I think its better than me lazing around in my house and crying myself to sleep every second night. Really im tired of it..its too much work to be stressed and I enjoy being relaxed and not having to put a face on every single minute.

Things to do:

pack all my stuff and decide what i am keeping
find a job
find a place to live
go to class and finish all my assignments
check out my student loan
apply for an internship
change my degree or whatever its called.

This is my life in a nutshell really!

Black Girls are my fetish!

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 05:42:54 GMT

Don't pay attention the journal title yet.

Read and then you will understand.

I met up with Katrina around 5:45 then we headed for the civic centre. It was actually quite cold today which was not really all that cool but what am I supposed to do really?

Anyway we went to the Bad Religion Concert.
the bands that played were:

Clit 45
Comeback kid <3
Drop Kick Murphy's <3
Bad Religion<3

It was really sweet I have a couple photos and videos for anyone who didn't get to see them.
I only have videos of Clit 45 and Dropkick Murphy's since for CBK and BR i was rocking out.

It was a fun night...I yelled at the guitarist that..he was funny and that I wanted the set list which I got.

False
Die 2 Night
All in a Year
Talk is Cheap
Trouble
Changing Face
Partners
Distnace
Step Ahead
Wake the Dead

great stage pres. by the way.

Then a few selection of girls got to go on stage during skinhead which was great.!!!
Katrina and I both got up on stage and skanked. I also got low and shaked my ass on stage. I have photos some cool Gatineau girl took them but you cant see me so i must edit them then post later.

Thomas called me the N word too (this kid from my highschool who is in grade 11) either way I made a big deal about it but didnt mean too I was just trying to be funny. Katrina then called me a porch monkey...I laughed so hard I almost shat in my pants.

Either way...after that there was this guy named Matt...I won't lie he is smoking hot. Like he is gorgeous. I think so anyway. He looked familiar as well. One of the body guard guys..during Frosh week but I'm not really sure. If he is who I think he is..he still is hot. Anyway got him and his friends email because they were both really cool and outgoing and talked to me which was great and then he came running back turned me around and told me "black girls are my fetish"

...yum...

It caught me off guard only because that is something I would say.
"white guys are my fetish ...bye!"

Anyway Katrina agrees that he is hot stuff.
OH MAN OH MAN.
need to run into that guy more often that is for sure.
^_^

This night was pretty awesome. Katrina and I had a swell time. Not only was it a swell time.
I met alot of new people

Phil, Matt, Jayzo, Brian, Jeff and John, Kiwi and more.

it was great...

here are some photos and footage!
ENJOY

Clit 45

CLIT 45 VIDEO
http://s69.photobucket.com/albums/i67/neptunicos_star/?action=view&current=DropkickMurphyConcert007.flv

Drop Kick Murphy's

DROP KICK MURPHY VIDEO
http://s69.photobucket.com/albums/i67/neptunicos_star/?action=view&current=DropkickMurphyConcert040.flv

there will be more later im sure of it!!!

cheerioxox

The Weekend of Kings town

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 03:58:12 GMT

It's really not Kings town its more like Kingston.
It wasn't that bad...But first I will start off with my weekend in a series of organized blocks.

FRIDAY
Forty Cent fix CD release..I did the doors with Michelle and Vicky it was pretty chill I won't lie. Made 10$ then got a cd. It is so chill I also love the artwork on the cd for sure.
Anyway the bands that played were - Hellbros,Motorcycle Drive By, Bill Furious and This is Rocket Science. I enjoyed it nicely but had to leave for FCF to get to Pats. I even got to see Julie i was tres excited. I like her other half he's pretty nice. I am also giving her the STAR CARABINA. haha. She's a star addict.
Anna, Michelle, Vicky, Ashley and I went to Pat's house. (Pat is some jerkoff) Anyway we really just needed a place to drink so it was all okay. I am pretty sure I got extremely trashed but I remember most of it. Ashley crying, Annabelle stealing his peephole for the apartment. Michelle almost getting thrown of the balcony, Vicky laughing at all of us and then me eating a cooking and puking out the 10$ of Burger King I had eaten. Good stuff right? No..not really.  Here are some photos.

SATURDAY
We headed back to Orleans I went to Michelles house and waited until Mitch (Mitchum) was finished work then we picked him up and headed to the bus station.
He actually played  Baywatch Pinball for 20 min haha. Anyway the bus ride was 2 hours which is 120 minutes. Crazy eh? I watched Man on Fire Michelle and Mitchum slept. Well Mitchum was drozy and his head kept flopping and he wore his sun glasses it was pretty funny. I don't know why I didn't tape it....fuck.
Oh well. We got down to Kingston around 8 and went to Timmies for Coffee,Tea and shit. Then one of Mitch's friends picked us up. I found him to be a little akward but that is just me...
We then picked up some alcohol (which I paid for but didn't drink) and then headed for AnP to meet Jay..who scares me and then went down to Aberdeen street which was alright except for the fact that I was sick and didn't feel like doing much but sleeping. Either way we headed down. I had to use the bathroom alot which sucked but that was because I drank a shitload of water to feel part of the group. Mitchum got drunk..really drunk..so drunk he didnt get fucked :O! haha I love that kid. I think he called me one of his best buds. It actually made somewhat of my day. At the beginning last summer I thought he hated me and only hung out with me because Michelle was there..and so then I thought the same too this summer/fall. Guess not though...I hate being insecure like that..It happens often if I think people don't like me I start to get all twitchy with them or not talk to anyone at all. Yes Ro gets insecure idiots. I'm not the mother fucking grand canyon. I'm not that much of an open person. It just seems like it sometimes but I used to be pretty shy. So shy I hid under a huge hood. I also sat in corners and got picked on. Still do but im tough enough now to beat the shit out of them. But that is not what Saturday is about is it? Actually it sort of was. But nevermind that...Anyway Mitch got really drunk. I even have a video...Im going to hope it works though... on here hopefully it will. I also smoked up for the first time that night with Mitch and his brother Justin which was pretty cool I guess. Then watched movies until 5 and couldnt sleep until 6:45 -7:00am. Here are photos of me and michelle and the video of mitch hopefully it works they are on the bottom.

MICHELLE RUNNING AROUND LIKE ANNA WITH A TWOSTEP FRENZY

MITCHUM IS CRUNKED OUT OF HIS MIND

SUNDAY
Went shopping with Michelle at 8:30AM but stores didn't open until 12am..definately not a cool thing. Got a Batman shirt that says Can you take the HEAT? quite proud of it I am.
either way me and Michelle walked 6 hours straight but 1hour and a half to get to ValueVillage and meet Justin to pick us up. Sucked balls. Either way that was pretty much my weekend. Everything else is pretty irrelvant and if i I forgot something i will probably add it in later.


Kingston was good.

........friday moring

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 14:04:25 GMT

PHILO CLASS IS...GAH!

Updating takes alot out of a woman!

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 01:52:18 GMT

There has not been much to report..really there hasn't.
My week has been eventful though...

I got kicked out for the following reasons:

- didnt want a 5pm,6pm curfew.
- apparently having white friends is the wrong thing to do
- art history wasnt a great educative choice
- i want to work part time in order to have money

there was alot of other things.
anyway im looking for a place so its all good.

also...also I THINK that im turning 18 in a month from tomorrow
actually I KNOW that im turning 18 in a month from tomorrow which means
presents start brainstorming on what you want to get me.

yep anyway
there is usually more to add to this journal/blog thing but im too lazy to do that.
but yeah frosh on sunday im quite excited.
i think crunkness is in order
right?
yeah....

Ace is my new boyfriend

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 03:46:42 GMT

So I just got a new laptop that I am currently on...but I am also using the wireless access from one of my neighbors. Who? I have no clue actually...anyway the cool thing about this is that I can be online at anytime in the day. I am tellement excite as they say in the french country. Anywa thats pretty much all I had to say.

mewoos

Sacred Weeks

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 03:48:52 GMT

It's actually quite hard for me to recollect everything that has happened in the past...2 weeks I guess...
I have not been to sure about what I want to do in the future. I always figured that I would try and be some kind of actress.
Then I wanted photojournalism which I still do. But I am doing art history right now. And I do plan on switching into communications to get into journalism...public relations and other things. I'll give you a list of what you can do with communications.

there is:
( I have put beside an X the ones that interest me)

	Communications consultant
	Journalist X
	Project manager X
	Media relations officer X
	Research assistant X
	Political attaché X
	Information officer
	Host or moderator X
	Communications director
	Copy writer
	Web designer
	Video artist X
	Policy analyst
	Editor X

I am quite fond of these things anyway ill write more later.

Make sure you go!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 15:53:53 GMT

GOING BACK TO SCHOOL WITH MUSIC IN YOUR VEINS

THE WISHLIST (Ottawa Hardcore)
TOMORROW STARTS TODAY (GATINEAU HARDCORE)
LIFE LONG TRAGEDY ( CALI HARDCORE)
DIE YOUNG ( TEXAS HARDCORE)
ROLL THE DICE (GATINEAU HARDCORE)

6:30PM
AT CAFE DEKCUF
$8/$10

TICKETS AVAILABLE AT ENDHITS TOMORROW
ONLY 5 TICKETS WILL BE THERE!
AA/19+

A BONESAW PRODUCTION !!!

Oh yes

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 01:33:35 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Roisin Dubh (There's alot more in here) Nwosu
Birthday:	October 2nd 1988
Birthplace:	St.John's, NFLD
Current Location:	Ottawa,Ontario
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Black
Height:	5'10
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Left baby
Your Heritage:	African/Irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Flats
Your Weakness:	Sweet guys
Your Fears:	Falling on my eye
Your Perfect Pizza:	Any pizza is good
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Turn 18 and get crunk doing it
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	I'm that damn good
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Is there a hot guy beside me?
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes
Your Bedtime:	3am
Your Most Missed Memory:	Almost getting laid! Joke
Pepsi or Coke:	Sprite
MacDonalds or Burger King:	MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Any is good..
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Doesn't matter
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla ;)
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Both
Do you Smoke:	I think I'm done
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	OF COURSE
Have you Been in Love:	Yes, Unfortunately
Do you want to go to College:	Going to University
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	But of course
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yes
Are you a Health Freak:	Not really
Do you get along with your Parents:	No
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Only if im in someones arms other than that im freaked to shit
Do you play an Instrument:	No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes
Ever Shoplifted:	No
How do you want to Die:	In my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	PR chick
What country would you most like to Visit:	Australia, England
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Green or Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Any Colour
Short or Long Hair:	Short is nice, Long is nice too
Height:	atleast 5'8
Weight:	I don't know...a nice weight?
Best Clothing Style:	Anything clean and not pathetic
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	tons
Number of Piercings:	1, probably getting more
Number of Tattoos:	One in two months or so
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	haha so many
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

The days go by

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 22:51:28 GMT

So I won't lie...

John is actually fucking hot.
Yeah...realized this a while ago...

Also im turning 18 in less than 2 months.
1 month and 23 days.

I'm going to the Dead King show on Friday..because the music is fucking sick..
Like too sick.
Then Monday I'm doing Drawnbacks merch!
Saves me..alot of money. Until next week Friday when I will need to start saving some cash up..for the Show on September 6th you know? But i will just start flyering all over the place next week and then at the University etc and so on.

Anyway get steady get bent.

Okay...okay....okay

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 01:53:54 GMT

I don't want to gloat but..I'm having a great day...
for one...I have an interview tomorrow at Olympus on Rideau St.
THEN...yes THEN

Im going to get my student ID at Ottawa U because im just that cool..
TOO COOL as I call it.

Plus I turn 18 in about 2 months which is exceptionally awesome.
Still havent gotten a place because I havent saved up due to things I need.
Michelle doesnt have a job yet..So im getting second thoughts about moving out with her.

I hope I get the job at Olympus they are a kick ass place. Well atleast to me.

I finished designing my tattoo. Im quite proud of it.
I would put it up here but...doing that would mean the whole world can get to it
and that my friends is just not cool.

Anyway I think I am done for the night.
...

mooo cha cha

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 04:06:34 GMT

Okay so funny thing...you know the Alex in the previous journal entries..havent talked to him for maybe a week or two at the least.
Remember how I wrote in the locked up one. that was deleted ....that I was kind of just pushing him away because he was a bit on the more action less leave me be type thing. Yeah..well..I got the whole....i know how you feel about relationships and I dont think....etc etc

I was like..oh! OH! ...haha I feel like crap though...
rejection isnt the nicest thing specially over msn...
but whatever. not much I can do...I've learnt to accept these things quite easily.
just next time I see him I'll make it really akward for him because thats who I am.

Should I feel something? Because as far as I know...I knocked off the fling on my list for the summer to do's.

"I don't except anything"
haha im glad im a fucking robot.
because right now..i would probably tell him how I really feel.
But im good with just letting it be.

This is tierneys lil MEME thing.

Type your cut contents here.1. Taken a picture naked? Yeah man...

2. Painted your room? Never

3. Made out with a member of the same sex? Yeah man.

4. Drove a car? Yeah man.

5. Danced in your mirror? Yes I have in the bathroom many times before I have shows to put on ..in front of people.

6. Have a crush? Nope

7. Been dumped? Nope.Yeah man!

8. Stole money from a friend? Nope

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yeah man!

10. Been in a fist fight? Yeah man..unfortunately.

11. Snuck out of your house? Yeah man.

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Who hasn't? -> I'm with Tierney on this one. I'm with the both of them on this.

13. Been arrested? Got banned from zellers and the st.laurent mall for 6 months. for something I didnt do. I was on the pisser.

14. Made out with a stranger? Nope...Don't want mono

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? ...what are we..in grade 2?

16. Left your house without telling your parents? Yeah man

17. Had a crush on your neighbor? Nope

18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yeah man

19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex(non sexual)? Yes...im not a fucking sucky baby.

20. Seen someone die? Yes, but revived.

21. Been on a plane? Twice

22. Kissed a picture? Nope.

23. Slept in until 3? Yeah..I've surpassed that 9pm

24. Love someone or miss someone right now? No..no

25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? quite a bit

26. Made a snow angel? I love it

27. Played dress up? If you mean getting dressed....then yes

28. Cheated while playing a game? haha YEAH MAN

29. Been lonely? what fucking question is this...3/4 of your life is lonliness

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? always

31. Been to a club? Just on grad. was kinda stupid

32. Felt an earthquake? Yeah

33. Touched a snake? Got kissed by one infact.

34. Ran a red light? Nope

35. Been suspended from school? Can't say I have.

36. Had detention? Not officially.

37. Been in a car accident? 5 times

38. Hated the way you look? I'm used to it now

39. Witnessed a crime? Yeah

40. Pole danced? Probably..with my hyperactiveness its possible

41. Been lost? Yeah

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Nope

43. Felt like dying? Before my morning coffee. :P I agree

44. Cried yourself to sleep? cried BEFORE I fell asleep. (kept again) many times

46. Sang karaoke? Nope

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yep

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Done it a couple of times..it hurts

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? :D (kept for simplicity)

50. Kissed in the rain? Yeah, last night. We were contemplating massive puddle jumping and then... got sidetracked. :P Then some tourists walked by. :P MEL!!! thats so cute. But ive never kissed in the rain...yet

51. Sang in the shower? Always

52. Made love in a park? No...but if I wanted to get some unknown disease like the Steph Mackie..then id rewrite my answer

53. Had a dream that you married someone? Nope.

54. Glued your hand to something? Glued my hand to my butt before..pure stupidity..should of taken photos

55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? nah im too cool for that

56. Ever gone to school partially naked? under my clothes

57. Been a cheerleader? nope

58. Sat on a roof top? alot of times

59. Didn't take a shower for a week? nope

61. Played chicken? im not a dumbass

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? i dont know how to swim

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? YES haha

64. Broken a bone? Nope I've cracked but never broken

65. Been easily amused? always

67. Mooned/flashed someone? Pantomimed it. :P agreed

68. Cheated on a test? when I was a rebel

69. Forgotten someone's name? alot of times.

70. Slept naked? no

71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? cant swim idiot

72. Asked a stranger to repeat simple directions THREE times to you? nope

73. Blacked out from drinking? when drinking too much coffee yes

74. Played a prank on someone? Yeah man

75. Gone to a late night movie? I think so

76. Made love to anything not human? wtf?

77. Failed a class? Yeah! PHYSICS

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Not sure

79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours straight? Mel does enough for me<3

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No

81. missing? ....?

82. Thrown strange objects? Rocks

83. Felt like killing someone? always

84. Felt like running away? have twice

85. Ran away? view answer above

86. Did drugs? Caffeine! Cigarettes?

87. Had detention and not attend it? never got a real detention

88. Where's the question? idiot.

89. Made a parent cry? nope

90. Cried over someone? yeah

91. Had sex more than 10 times in one day? oh my pelvic bone

92. Dated someone more than once? No when its done ..its done

93. Had/Have a dog? Nope

94. again, missing question.

95. Own an instrument? bass.

96. Been in a band? Yeah, nothing I'm particularly proud of. HAHAHA I AGREE MEL

97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? nope

98. Broken a CD? for the purpose of art

99. Shot a gun? no

100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? yeah..

I fucking hate 3:08

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 07:33:02 GMT

I decided to wake up and type up a nice journal entry while watching Dracula 2000 at the same time.

I am actually fed up with what has been happening in my life for more than 3 years. Seriously...it isn't fair.
A boyfriend who gets another chick pregnant when I am only 15-16. My father who is abusive and won't stop..slandering me or whatever you want to call it. I FUCKING HATE IT.

My mom does shit all..really she does...It's actually funny how she thinks that its okay to pretend like he does absolutely nothing and then we all have to put on a smile when he gets here. BULLSHIT!
I need to move out somehow...I plan on getting 2 other jobs I guess and if that helps then I am good. If not I will try and move in with a friend downtown and pay what I can for board. I have had enough..and its funny because...I am just going to stop acting so glum about it..and try and put it in the back of my mind. Or atleast try and get it out by crying to someone..talking to someone beating the crap out of something...or just taking a long ass nap.

sigh...well lets talk about the good things in my life.

I have a show on Wednesday..finally get to meet Billy and The Lost Boys...actually I'd rather just meet Billy..but whatever works.
Alex...I think we are sort of seeing each other? I don't know..he said something along the lines of patience...I'm cool with that but I just don't want to be used and disposed you know? He is tresssssss nice though and really sweet plus he likes poetry..I used to but i dont mind it once in a while. ALSO he's pretty smart and likes good music and play the guitar oh so nicely.

I am going to Ottawa U for Art History then definately changing into communications for advertising or even journalism, whichever works. I dislike if my parents would not leave me alone about it but whatever.

I think thats about all the nice stuff I can think of though.
There is probably more..but we shall see? Or will we not..
Or not will I see if you don't see anything?

The End.

This weird thing that Tierney did

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 21:48:23 GMT

Well, let's see...
Tierney did this weird thing so I copied and did it too!!!
Also last night was cool...stayed at home talked to Alex. Pretty much the exact same thing I did today...except talk to Alex.
But we'll see...

How tall are you barefoot?
5’9?5’10? who knows!!!

2. Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes I have...and I broke him nicely

3. Do you own a gun?
nope.

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
what kind of question is this?

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
9..but 4 for short.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
mmm so goooood

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
don’t really have one..is that a crime?

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
coffee, tea, energy drink/smoothie

9. Do you do push-ups?
yeah atleast once a night

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
ew no

11. Do you like DisneyWorld?
have never been…but I guess I’d like it

12. Do you like the rain?
When it's warm. mm and the smell it leaves. (I agree with Tierney but I still love the rain.

13. Do you have any pets?
no pets

14. What do you smell like?
strawberries and cranberries

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
close enough. I'm an artsy (I agree with Tierney)

16. Full initials?
RDLSIEN

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
Alex, Shows, Juice

8. Name the last 3 things you have bought today.
absolutely dick all

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.
coffee, sprite/Fruitopia mix, peace juice

20. What time did you wake up today?
7:01 am is when I set my clock for, fell asleep and woke up fully at 1pm

21. Can you spell?
idiot...can I read?

22. Current worry?
Starvation around the world.

23. Current hate?
my family.

24. Favorite place to be?
with mes friends and alex

25. Least favorite place to be?
Near Coventry. And near my family

26. Where do you want to go?
Ireland, Australia, Japan

27. Do you own slippers?
I do

28. Where do you think you will be in 10 years?
Teaching, Advertising Firm, Politician

29. Do you burn or tan?
Neither…I’m black damnit

30. Yellow or blue?
blue…im not as happy as tierney

31. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate?
I wouldn’t want to be a pirate.

32. Last time your cell rang?
Long time ago…getting a new one hopefully

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Samiam songs, Gnarls Barley also

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
fire, Michael Jackson, boogie man

35. What's in your pockets right now?
no pockets

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
my sister drooling all over the place

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
I don’t know..you expect me to remember or actually care?

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
knee injury on both my knees for volleyball – nice surgery there

39. What is your GPA?
wtf? I have no clue

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
1

41. Who is your loudest friend?
I resent that ANSWER TIERNEY…I would have to say Margaret I love it when she laughs!

42. Who is your most silent friend?
Tierney

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
maybe? Don't know. Well I think I do know…but..I’m not saying :P

44. Do you wish on stars?
all the time

45. Do you have a dream?
I do..to find love..and to be happy and yeah

46. What song did you last hear?
Gnarls Barkley – GoGO gadget

47. Whats your best moment?
Volleyball games, and dancing moments

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Something happy

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
watching television…missing someone a bit

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I hate you fucker!

Another Wednesday

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 01:27:27 GMT

Alright so today..worst day ever..I dont even want to talk about it...really. I dont know.
I may discuss it with Alex though...
But most of you know the problems with the family so lets just say that

anyway..........

Im going to make a list of the romantic things I like..because I got the idea from someone (who shall not be named)
and thought maybe I should put them in so I truly know what I like.
I wont number them..
but ill list them

Cuddle on the sofa and watch a movie.

Just sitting and talking.

Holding hands.

If we are getting together for an evening or even for just a few minutes, and they pick up my favorite treat or snack

Getting random odd presents

Surprises that are sweet..I don't know what..but they just are

getting flowers

taking a nap together (yum)

star gazing

candy is romantic..its cheesy but it says I care about your sweettooth sweetheart HAHA CHEEEEESE LAY IT ON

Make a little loving gesture

massages are tres romantic...and at random without me knowing.

writing me a letter and then sending it without telling me until it gets here

someone who is pushy and sometimes tells me to shutup haha i find it cute DONT ASK

anyway..thats my two cents..ill probably post something else today who knows?
ohhh i editted it yesum

i had 5 people talk to me about Alex..and all I could tell them was..
I don't know yet!!
haha

Katrina was awesome though...i enjoyed her advice
she is my sister
pat is my brother
thats how it works baby

Under The Stars

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 05:49:54 GMT

This is where I write something absolutely fantastic about my evening.
But I wont...it will come in later ...in the entry I guess.

I woke up..pretty normal thing to do you know? Then I headed to Michelles show which I guess was pretty cool. I was kinda just anxious for Alex to come or to see if he was coming because i thought he wasn't going to. But he did! and I saw Schmula Bing there (PAT = SB) Anyway..I'll still call him Pat for this entry.

Yeah so...the show was good. Catherine was chill..I wont really talk about the show because I was a bit angry during it but whatever.

Pat and Alex went to Aylmer, then walked around the marina and took a piss in the water and then alex climbed up a crows nest thing he said..called the white mans basketball net...HM
But they came and picked me up around 11pm which was pretty chiller!
So we went to the..industrial parkway road thing and Pat drove for a bit then I drove a bit after.
That was actually pretty fun and then we went to a gravel road and looked at the stars...there were so many...
it was so beautiful. Im glad I got to share it with those two guys though.

Pat is like family really. I can tell him everything and he'd be honest.
I wont tell you what Alex is..because im not sure yet. But he's really sweet so...thats a good thing.

But the mosquitos were fucking annoying as hell..holy gawd.
We then went to Timmies bought some timbits got extra!! w00t.
Then went to Pats house ate them and him and Alex played guitar which was sweet.

I gave Alex this german coin..since he likes languages and things
it was a corny thing to do ..really but it had starts on the ridge..and he seemed to like it then he told me
that it was really awesome..So I guess I'll start doing that.

I keep wondering though if we are going to hookup? or..
I think we need to have a discussion about it.

A Resume

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:39:33 GMT

It's been about 6 days since I have typed something new... I'm trying to remember what has happened in the past 6 days. I got drunk by myself and went to Blackbridge or whatever its called. went to the bridge first...got drunk later. Cheeky? Not really. Then I went to Bluesfest the other two days which was crazy Metric was really really good. Then on Saturday I had to work and then I went to...Bluesfest again to see..Anberlin,Halifax and Story of the year but I left half way through to go and see Alex. HE PARKED SO FAR HAHA!!! (I sorry I complained...I was trying to get on your nerves) But surprisingly I didn't..Or did I? Anyway we went to Skattawa Fest! Chooourah! which was hella great not alot of people but I was proud that Jeff went past curfew (10pm and killed it all up) Alex bought me a sprite<3 twas sweet I admit. Then we dropped Katrina off at Rideau and went to pick up Michelle at LeBOP hardy har har... Then we drove back to Orleans and got Pizza and Dropped Michelle off. HIS DRIVING FREAKED THE SHIT OUT OF ME NO JOKEEEEEEE!!! anyway I keep diverting to other things when writing this...not a good idea really. I got home around 3oclock that night with Alex...twas fun..thats all im going to let out really. It was kind of oldschool to tell you the truth! I'm surprised. SunDAY bloody SunDAY Went to work then went to see Click with Alex which was not only comfortable..but funny..I cried a little bit..well got teary eyed. Then went to MickDicks with Alex and sat in the car and watched tv at Broadways near my house. The weekend/week was really really really fun. No doubt... And he is taller than me! Joy oh joy:P Oh bonus You me and the Enemy rocked my ottawa socks off. Cheers There will be an edit or something.. plus I Saw julie on friday night which was pretty chill since me and michelle were heading to endhits and were bout to see metric and we all talked about leeeeeeeeeee vertical that michelle might get. julie things they are the nicest piercing..but i dunno there are alot of pretty piercings really. che cha

Martyr

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 15:27:52 GMT

I'll tell you right now...last night was great.
The Latin Ska band I saw were so awesome. I hope they are not from Mexico otherwise..I'd be so sad.

It was a good night. merci Emma for buying us Wendy's you made my day.
It started out pretty shitty...

My dad called and told me I was pretty much worthless.
Then my mom keeps busting my ass about how I enjoy to sleep. I need the sleep ugh.
I dislike this really I do.

Need to get out. Still looking for a place though hopefully somewhere that will come up to $300 including utilities.
Need to find roommates. I dont think Michelle is finding work.
And I dont think she really cares about moving out anymore.
Plus it would be best to move in with people I hardly know right? Or know a little bit but dont spend alot of time with.

anyway I stole this from Mels thing
because I thought it was cool.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

✓ I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	✓ I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	✓ I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	✓ I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
✓ I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
✓ I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	✓ I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	✓ I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.	✓ I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	✓ I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Festival Pass bitches!

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 13:08:11 GMT

Yes its true...I won a festival pass to bluesfest off of PunkOttawa..I am just that damn excited about it for reals.

Anyway I'm still looking for a place to live.
And I definately have to make a new budget out of it. Somehow...
Also need to find a second job because as it is..I make..450$ a month. Which is enough if I get a roommate and end up paying 350 for rent and then add my utilities and shit to it.

But I would need to make atleast 600 a month if possible.
But we'll see how that works out right?

Anyway thats right bitches!

So here is the deal!

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 19:15:01 GMT

I went shopping yesterday was definately crazy great. Bought a skirt and 5 shirts I think btween bluenotes and urban planet. different colours yadda yadda.

Then went to work and cut open my finger. Gash
Ended up going to Bluenotes again today to pick up a second skirt because my dad thought it was nice then we went to Jessiflex (nigerian food store) and got some meat patties. Which was equally awesome.

I'm not sure what to do right now but I work tomorrow and Sunday...need the money.
Plus I think I might just go and start looking for apartments and writing up my budget. I dont even know if Michelle is going to bother doing the same but we shall see.

Cheers

Motor Skills

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:03:56 GMT

So my pc is inviting virus' the effing thing.
But I will get them fixed. My pops leaves the 9th.
Oh what to do what to do?

Still looking for another job got to get one soon thats for sure.
Anyway..whatever.

I am what they call...bored

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 17:17:05 GMT

So I made a new livejournal account..and I have a blogspot account but realized that Ottawa U will be on here and probably not on blogspot so it would be alot easier if I just moved everything here...

I have this list for the summer I am probably going to share with you because I'm just that cool.

Check it.

1. Get drunk
2. Learn how to swim
3. Move out
4. Get a second job
5. Meet a nice boy. Assholes not allowed. Play some sports or see a billion of movies
6. Update my music collection alphabetically
7. Update blog every day or every second day
8. Make new friends
9. Travel around
10. Spend alot of time away from the family
11. Have a kickass party
12. Create a masterpiece not only in photography

p.s. I am definately sticking with this one..I have no choice.